This was quite a day. I feel somewhat "naked" now writing for a potential audience. Before it was just Annie and Sarah, and I can handle those bitches :)
As soon as I hit the send button today, I got sick. I've cried several times since emailing everyone. I feel like I am being a potential burden to you all, even though I know I'm not. Who knew that telling your closest friends, the ones you would live and die by, what you were going through is the hardest thing I've done to date?
Exposed, raw, humbled, loved. Those are words that are circling through my head right now. Along with bless and release. I have to know that my words are not meant to scare anyone, but bring them to a higher understanding of what I am going through. And release that to them. Bless and release.....bless and release. THAT is what my new tattoo may be :)
To update real quick on mom: she called me around dinnertime sounding awesome. She and I are going to the oncologist tomorrow and afterwards are heading to The Gathering Place to pick her out some weaves. She seemed light about it when I asked her. Not as grumpy as I expected her to be. I'll post more when I know more.
Oh! And my friends really know how to follow directions :) Not to email me ACTUALLY means to email, text AND call me :) You are all so wonderful, I wouldn't have it any other way. Who was I to think that Jessica Petersen's friends would listen to her?! If I didn't answer, I will. It was just a way more emotional day than I thought. Love you all.....
I love "bless and release" for your new tattoo! Praying for this morning's appointment.
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